I just tried to make a nice, yummy, healthy lunch. The result is the perfect metaphor for my life.
This is how it’s supposed to look…..
This is what it actually looks like…..
I’m so sick of people assuming I do nothing about my career. Like do you think I just sit in my room, watching movies and TV shows and expecting my acting or singing career to fall into my lap? I’m not a naive young 16 year old, just out of school, with high hopes of stardom. I am 27 years old, been in this industry for over 11 years. I have studied my craft for 5 years professionally, I’ve done TV work for 8 years, movies for 3 years, stage for 10 years and sung for 17 years. Everyday I apply for auditions, opportunities or I build my network…….there is never a day when I don’t do something towards my career. You think its easy being an actor? Think again. You have to want it 110% and be insanely passionate and know that doing anything else, would never be enough. Else its not worth your time. Life is hard, being an actor makes it even more hard, but if its all you think about, then its worth it.
Don’t ever assume you know me, or what I’ve done, or what I don’t do. I WILL be successful because I have the drive and passion. Every opportunity I have had, I’ve created for myself. Off Broadway, Grammys, singing with Idina….I’ve pushed to get myself into a position where I can do these things and be offered these opportunities. Don’t judge me until you know the facts.
That moment when one photo can rip your heart out and make you feel unappreciated in one foul swoop
gootislightning asked: How did you come up with the idea? :)
Well, we were 4 fangirls who moved in together last year, and with the hilarity that ensued in our house, we thought ‘you know what, this would be a great comedy’. Then we started throwing ideas around and realised we were on to something. As far as we know, there’s nothing like this out there. And also, there is such a negative connotation when people think of fangirls, we wanted to try and change that. We want to show that actually, these fandoms have helped forge some of the strongest friendships. They have even saved lives, there’s so much more to them than the stereotype they are tarnished with.
Not everything is supposed to become something beautiful and long-lasting. Sometimes people come into your life to show you what is right and what is wrong, to show you who you can be, to teach you to love yourself, to make you feel better for a little while, or to just be someone to walk with at night and spill your life to. Not everyone is going to stay forever, and we still have to keep on going and thank them for what they’ve given us.
I sometimes wonder why certain things happen, certain conversations, turns of events etc. But it really is how you learn and grow from those things that defines you. I’ve been feeling really down lately so instead of looking at the negative, I used my feelings to write two new songs, including one for a dear friend who recently passed away. I think it’s important to always try and find a way to utilise your feelings as an artist in any way you can, whether the feelings be happy or sad.
It’s all about expression and passion, and your emotions are a huge part of that so don’t hide them, embrace them
Sometimes it’s hard to stay positive when you feel your career has hit a wall. Like all you’re doing is surviving but not really living. You’re working to earn money to live, not working because its what you love. I’ve become complacent.
Just feels like I’m letting my life slip away, and not reaching my full potential. Seems I’m ok with living comfortably.
I do not like this. I just feel really alone right now, like I’m proving all the doubters right. I’ve never sought ‘fans’ or ‘supporters’, for me its about getting recognition for the work I do. But I just feel like everything has ground to a halt now.
I’m the sort of person who, once a friendship is struck, I don’t need contact every day or even regularly to maintain that friendship. I choose my friends carefully and once a friend, always a friend. Regardless of whether we speak once a week, or once a year. They know that: should they need me, I will be there at the drop of a hat. And I too know that if I need them, they’ll be there. That’s what friendship is. Friendship is trust, love and respect.
So if I don’t talk to you often, never feel like I don’t care. You can ALWAYS talk to me if you need to. I want to know what’s going on with you so never feel like you’re bothering me. I value the friends I have so much. I just hope they know that I do love them dearly even if we don’t have regular contact. Once I make friends, I will be loyal to them as long as its reciprocated.