Today, meeting with a good friend of mine has really opened my eyes. He is like a big ball of energy and inspiration. He made me realise that I focus too much on negativity and what people think of me, when what I should be doing is using that to fuel my passion and ambition. Use the hate to prove them wrong, those who don’t support or seem uninterested, they are not worth my time. I have been so blessed with amazing friends that even when I don’t see them for a year, we still act like we’ve never been apart. They are there unconditionally for me when I need them and vice versa. I have forgotten this in recent months during my depression and anxiety attacks. I have felt alone, isolated and relied on just a few people but I see now how unfair that was to them and me. I can’t expect just one or two people to always be there to pick me up, I have to be stronger and fight harder to get where I want to be.
So this is the new Shell. Positive, even more ambitious and hard working, thicker skin and ready to make my dreams come true. I can now see that even if I feel alone, I will always have friends around to pick me back up and kick me back onto the rocky road of life!