So um……I’m gonna be on Broadway in March!!!! 0_o
Is this real life? I’m doing a show (off broadway technically) in New York for one night only but omg….dream coming true!
So um……I’m gonna be on Broadway in March!!!! 0_o
Today, meeting with a good friend of mine has really opened my eyes. He is like a big ball of energy and inspiration. He made me realise that I focus too much on negativity and what people think of me, when what I should be doing is using that to fuel my passion and ambition. Use the hate to prove them wrong, those who don’t support or seem uninterested, they are not worth my time. I have been so blessed with amazing friends that even when I don’t see them for a year, we still act like we’ve never been apart. They are there unconditionally for me when I need them and vice versa. I have forgotten this in recent months during my depression and anxiety attacks. I have felt alone, isolated and relied on just a few people but I see now how unfair that was to them and me. I can’t expect just one or two people to always be there to pick me up, I have to be stronger and fight harder to get where I want to be.
So this is the new Shell. Positive, even more ambitious and hard working, thicker skin and ready to make my dreams come true. I can now see that even if I feel alone, I will always have friends around to pick me back up and kick me back onto the rocky road of life!
Sorry if my tweets or Tumblr posts have seemed a little sad recently, I’m just not in a great place at the moment but it’s going to change soon. I’ve been really lost and lonely but a good friend has helped me see that all you really need is one or two really good people to pick you up and stand with you.
I focus on the negatives instead of the amazing things that have happened to me this year. So I have very exciting projects I’m about to start including a feature film and a short film both of which I’m playing lead character, and I have a big photoshoot with an LA talent scout so all the persistence and hard work has paid off.
I know people probably think I don’t do anything that I just preach about following your dreams and working hard but actually no one sees the work I do. The 100’s of agents I’ve applied for, the dozens of jobs I apply for daily, the videos I watch to hone my skills. Never a day goes by when I don’t do something towards my dream. Every day! I work hard and just because I don’t broadcast it all over social media, doesn’t mean I don’t do it. I keep my head down and get on with it. This career is far from easy, and anyone who attempts it will see when they start to take chances too
Late to the game….
OK so I’m very deprived when it comes to movies. There are a LOT of classics that I havent seen and I feel like I need to educate myself so…. today I watched Argo, yesterday I watched Love Actually and tonight was the turn of the new Batman films.
I have seen a lot of talk about them and about Nolan as a director and I just thought yeah ok this guy is obviously a popular director, but dont really watch too may action movies, they usually are predictable and stupidly violent. Oh boy was I wrong. Having watched Batman Begins and The Dark Knight back to back all I can say is HOLY FUDGE CAKE?! The directing is second to none, I was mesmerised the whole way through both films. The effects (particularly in Dark Knight) are like nothing i’ve seen before and the acting is probably some of the finest I’ve seen in a while. THAT is why they are some of Hollywood’s finest. Jeesh!
It was just inspiring to watch them work the screen the way they did. The directing was fresh, exhilarating, and never left me bored or distracted. I am just in awe right now, I definitely have a new favourite superhero now. Love love love these films!
Thank you Curt for always going on about Batman and therefore making me watch them haha!
- The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel
Seriously one of the best films I’ve seen in a while. Incredible performances from Dame Maggie Smith and Dame Judi Dench. Definitely the best of British in the cast! It makes me want to take MORE lessons to be even half as good. Very inspiring to watch them on screen. Just wow….
“There are so many reasons Klaine is such a cherished, beloved couple – and perhaps even the most favorite on “Glee.” The driving force behind the fan shipping is unquestionably the incredibly brilliant job Chris Colfer and Darren Criss do bringing Kurt and Blaine to life – and making their feelings in any given moment in their relationship so wonderfully real. The amazing thing about this phone call is how much we feel what they are feeling – on two separate ends of the conversation, in two separate places. Blaine clings to every word Kurt says (and so do we, who are we kidding?). When Kurt says “I miss you like crazy” and “You’re still my best friend” Blaine fights tears and ours flow helplessly—en masse. Kurt promises they’ll have a “mature heart-to-heart” at Christmas and maybe go ice skating. Darren Criss just nails how you can be so happy and sad at once that you can’t really even speak. So Blaine sort of squeaks out, “So we’re really gonna see each other at Christmas?” and Kurt says yes, with confidence. When Blaine sort of breathes out, “I love you so much, Kurt…” Kurt offers a shorter, more crisp, “I love you too.” It’s obvious Kurt is trying to keep his chin up and not break down – until Isabelle finds him and offers him a hug and tears roll down his face.”
The fact that I even get to pursue this career and art is beyond amazing. I do not take it for granted. Sure, it can be hard. It takes a lot of worth and dedication. But I have been blessed with some amazing opportunities that allow me to pursue this dream and I do not take that for granted for one second. When I struggle with self doubt (which is daily), I remember what I fell in love with and what compelled me to begin to pursue doing what I’ve set out to do in the first place. Then it all makes sense once again. I get myself out of the way and let love and passion lead me once again. I believe my life is purposed and not an accident and I can walk in that faith.
The main things that keep me going are my family, friends and my love for of storytelling.”
- Curt Mega
THIS is exactly how I feel!
Ok, time to stop feeling sorry for myself and get back out there. Yes its hard, yes it takes a lot of knock backs to find that big thing but nothing easy ever happened over night. And so what if I dont “Make it” I’m damn well gonna have fun trying. BRING IT ON.